April books: 3/4 (The Hum and the Shiver)
We’ll do 5 books for May, cuz why not.
It’s come to my attention that I will have 12 days in June to myself. Like, yes, I have to work and all that jazz, but the rest of the family will be off on various adventures and I will be by myself. For the first time in years and years and honestly maybe ever.
(Actually, no, I take that back, there were periods right after college where my spouse would be gone for weeks at a time for work.)
My instinct is to overplan the heck out of those days. That class on music theory I’ve been thinking about taking? A brand new exercise routine? A SCIENCE FICTION SERIES?
Alternately, I’m terrified that I will fall into my worst habits on my own. As I’ve gotten older it’s become more and more apparent that I am probably some flavor of neurodivergent that got missed because I got straight As in school, and I often joke that my family is my executive functioning, but it’s not wrong. My spouse makes sure I go to bed at a reasonable time, and chores and cooking and whatnot have to be done to make sure my children have a functional childhood. On my own I tend to slip into weird hyperfixations and bad sleeping patterns (case in point: my spouse and oldest are away on a campout this weekend, and youngest and I were up until 2 am).
(God, I am so tired. Also I meant to do this blog post on Wednesday.)
But there has to be a happy medium where I don’t get sucked into some hyperfixation for eight hours a day and can do some things I’ve been meaning to get around to. Just got to figure out how to do it.
I’m also going to a writing retreat May 28-30 (it goes through the 31st, but I have concert tickets on the night of the 30th and will have to duck out early). New location, so I don’t know exactly how it will go. But I could in theory do set-up for a big project I start those weeks in June.
Here are possibilities that I have come up with for June, thus far:
- Take said music theory class
- Spend more time working out (with, like, more of a plan than I’m doing right now)
- Eat things that the rest of the family won’t
- Start (and maybe complete?) a writing project of some sort
I feel like I had more but I’ve forgotten them at this point. Oh well.
The hope is, though, if I plan out my time, I shall stick-ish to the plan.
Anyway, on to the story. No planning has gone into this either:
~*~*~*~*~
~*~*~*~
I’m vaguely reminded of a podcast I used to listen to called Tanis. Each episode was full of creepy and occult story bits, but when you stepped out of the episode and thought about it, it didn’t make any sense. Not in a “things are mysterious and aren’t supposed to be perceived by humanity” sort of way, but more of a “we’re making this up as we go and have no internal consistency” sort of way.
So maybe at some point I should figure out where I’m going, but that time has yet to come.
(Also, I listened to four seasons of Tanis, so obviously it worked well enough.)
See you next week, squiders!
